im baaaaaaackkkk.... a little numb, but back nonetheless!

so wassup?!?!? not much with me... well, at least nothing worthy of warranting anyone's attention... what?!?!? you want me to tell ya? well fine then.. ill be glad to oblige :p

but im not in the writing mood right now so later....

for now... im out :)

break breakdown.....

there's nothing like relieving pent up frustration... in my case though im pretty sure that there's quite some still left given that i can't seem to smile....

im so in need of prayers right now....

yesterday, the hammer went down.... it is confirmed... i won't graduate until this summer.

if you know me personally, you would know that im not the kind of person who cries on my friends' shoulders. i don't even like sharing my problems with my own family. i guess, its really because i don't like sharing my emotions. so sue me.

i will share this though, if you talk to me and im snappish, anytime during the next month, please don't take it personally, chances are, ill be acting out...

ok.. so here i am in school waiting for another 5 hours for my thesis adviser to arrive...
in the meantime, im taking advanatge of the 20 php per hour internet rate. (would be waaaaayy better though if it were free but then again i would be the abusive one so i guess this arrangement works out best for me :p)

well, as i type this the war still rages on... and the oscars are being held. im terribly sleepy... im blaming it on atticus finch (i couldn't put down a book in the middle of a reread!!). i guess i can only say this: i am so grateful that i have the parents that i have.

ive been reading the entertainment columns at salon.com, which by the way is a real great site... well at least in my opinion. they are certainly a laugh and a half.

i'd write more but then i have nothing i really wanna say right now.... so i guess till the next time... tata!

oh... and a little scripture... James 1:2... consider it pure joy when you face trials, knowing that the test of faith produces endurance.

here's a joke that holds a certain grain of truth to it....

I believe the US Gov't when it says that Iraq has weapons of mass destruction...
after all.. they're still holding the receipts

when peace like a river attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll, whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say it is well, it is well with my soul

this is a line from a favorite hymn of mine... and it is now more than ever applicable to our current situation.
we are into the final 12 hours of the 48 hour ultimatum that bush gave to hussein. and pretty soon the world will once again bear witness to war.

i dunno, maybe the us is right when it says that it will be a fast war... but fast or not, life and blood will be shed.

i dunno whatelse to think or say. i cannot fathom the reasons for why this has to happen. so all i can say is....

when peace like a river attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll, whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say it is well, it is well with my soul.....

death, destruction... these 2 are the only things was
is good for. fact is, nothing is solved with war.
yeah, a nation may be forced to its knees, dictators
may be brought down, but it won't solve the root
causes of problems. it is only fire that ravage grass
above the soil, but fail to touch the roots embedded
in the ground.

it takes a wise man to think of a solution that won't
require the use of force. unfortunately, we seem to
lack men and women of this sort. how sad it is, now
that the world is ready for peace, the leaders are
not.

rejoice in the thought that you are not alone in this
prayer. millions of people around the world are
believing same as you that war is not the answer.

maybe we do need this war. maybe finally saddam will
be brought to his knees. but maybe the US will be
too. not brought to its knees militarily, no, they
will win the battle. instead, they may be brought to
their knees in the realization that it is not only
brute strength and power that represents a true
superpower. but also the ability to resolve problems
without having to use that power which they wield.

48 hours and we are counting down. i take comfort in
that i know that you along with I, and most of the
world is ready for peace. let us take comfort in
prayers and the knowledge that God is with us in all
of this. in Him we have comfort and peace beyond all
our earthly understanding.

as it would turn out, i wouldn't have problems with being a blog addict. my freaking schedule took good care of that for me! (haha)

the thing is, i have yet to learn how to do this internet thing (meaning: having and maintaining your own website, html, and all that), so my blogging will basically be limited to using this prefabricated layout, and having to use this... whatever it is this is :p

so anyway, what's new with my life?!?! well, not much. im struggling to get to terms with my nearing the end college life and i am losing, big time. ive recently weaned myself from the idea that bush might ever be enlightened about the error of warring iraq, and has resigned myself to the fact that this war is going to happen. but then again, all things happen for a reason. my thought is that the us probably needs to also realize that the arrogance of doing what it is that they are doing right now.

so many countries have seen the top. they have dominated the world, for hundreds of years even. but empires fall and leaders are brought to face their own mortality. maybe this war was meant to make the us realize the foolishness of being proud, and saddam be brought to mortality.

all i can say is God be with us. but then again, He always is.